My December baby…

We decided it was time to make our family of 3 a little bit bigger.  Apparently, we are super fertile and I conceived within the month.  We were surprised but so excited!  I created a Shutterfly photo book and the last picture was a baby announcement photo.  We surprised our immediate families by having them look through the book and figure it out themselves.  After an ultrasound the due date was set to December 26th and everything looked great around 7 ½ weeks.  We went in four weeks later for what should have been the 11 ½ week appointment but the Dr. couldn’t find the baby’s heartbeat so we had an ultrasound done right away.  The baby had died around 9 ½ weeks and my body just wasn’t reacting.  We were heartbroken. I looked at the calendar and realize the baby died around the same day that my Beloved Grandmother also left this world.  That made it harder but I also had the image of my Grandma loving on my unborn baby in Heaven with Jesus and teaching him or her some of her little sayings like, “I love you a bushel and a peck and a hug around the neck.”  That was comforting but made me miss my Grandma even more.

We knew of other close friends that had gone through miscarriages but just didn’t expect this happen to us.  We were praying for this baby before he or she was even conceived.  Everything seemed perfect.  I had a D&C done the next day.  Walking around with a dead baby inside of you is a very awful feeling.  Walking around with an empty womb when there should be a baby growing inside of you can be even worse.

They say the instance of miscarriage is around 50% with many miscarriages happening so early the mother doesn’t even know she conceived.  Some of my very best friends have experienced the heartbreak of miscarriage.  Some friends have had “natural” miscarriages, some “missed” miscarriages like me in which a D&C was required, and some have even had ectopic pregnancies.  I’ve seen their heartaches and walked through some of the grief with them.  They did the same for me.

It’s hard to explain what I felt after this happened.  I was shocked, dismayed, sad, angry, disillusioned, and at peace in a very short time frame.  One minute I wanted to try to conceive again as soon as possible and after a few weeks I realized my body needed time to heal and so did my heart.

I talked to my friends that had gone through miscarriage a bit and that helped because they knew exactly what I was feeling.  I leaned on my family.  I cried with my Mom.  I allowed myself to be sad but I didn’t stay there.  I knew that God was in control and his plan was much better than mine.  I trusted in Him even when I was hurting.  “For I know the plans I have for you, “ declares the Lord, “ plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11

I just rested in God’s love and peace.  I placed my hope in Him, again.  I’m still sad about my December baby but I’m not broken.  God took care of me.  I want to encourage others to reach out and find healing if they have experienced miscarriage and have a hard time dealing with the emotions that inevitably parade through our hearts.  Sometimes it takes longer to heal and some of us need a little extra support.  That’s ok.  We’re all in this together.  You don’t have to grieve alone.

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Women of Faith 2011 Kansas City, MO Preview

I am thrilled to announce that I have been selected to be a Book Sneeze blogger for the Women of Faith conference in Kansas City, MO on November 4th and 5th, 2011.   I will be tweeting live from the event and will follow up with another blog post after the weekend is over.  I have been to a few Women of Faith events and there is just nothing else like it.  It is a time for reflection, tears, and laughter.  The speaker/entertainment line-up for this event includes Patsy Clairmont, Marilyn Meberg, Lisa Whelchel, Sandi Patty, Brenda Warner, Mandisa, Amy Grant, Deborah Joy, and Andy Andrews!

For more information on the line-up and registration go to:

http://www.womenoffaith.com/events/2011-events/kansas-city/

Women of Faith events are refreshing and encouraging.  It is a very special worship experience.  I hope to see you there!

Pray for the Bear triplets

*UPDATE* The mother went into labor and they couldn’t stop it.  The three boys were born but all died shortly after birth.  Pray for this couple as they start the long healing process amidst their grief.

 

I think there is a normal amount of shock and disbelief that occurs when you find out you are pregnant, even if you are trying to conceive.  The Bear family experienced this as well as found out they were pregnant with TRIPLETS (with no fertility treatments)!  Can you even imagine?! ?!  The mother has Lupus (mild and in remission now) and one of the sacs ruptured and amniotic fluid is leaking at 21 weeks.   They are extremely concerned about the future of the baby that is not surrounded by fluid and the risk of infection which could affect all 3 babies and even the mother.  You can read more about their family and experience here: http://tipsontriplets.wordpress.com/

Please join me in praying for this family.  God please heal this woman’s body and protect these babies.  Give them the faith to trust You when they don’t understand why this is happening.  Support them and take them into Your arms like only You can.

Journey to Joseph, An Adoption Adventure

My Twitter friend, @kaylacraig, is adopting a little boy from Africa!  She and her husband, Jonny_Craig, live and work in the Des Moines, IA area.  They have been blogging about their adoption experience at http://www.journeytojoseph.com/.

They are still in need of some baby items including a stroller and pack ‘n play.  If you have something you would like to donate please let me know and we’ll make it happen!  They hope to bring Joseph home in the next couple of months, just in time for his 1st Birthday!  Please pray for God to continue preparing them for parenthood, speed of adoption process to bring Joseph home, and that God’s love and glory will continue to touch many lives along the way.

Hello world!

I always have a lot to say so I decided it may be time to start blogging.  I’m always posting great deals on facebook/twitter so this will be a centralized hub for deals I like around the Des Moines area, book reports, and recipes I’m trying.  I’m sure I will also post about life, marriage, and babies!  I’m passionate about people I love and God’s truth.  Welcome to my blog.